As childish as it may seem, I sometimes care about getting tapped left and right. This is notthe mentalityI had when I made mybiggest improvements as whiye belt. Instead, I focused on what made the tap possible in the first place. This 200 lbs brown belt who is a good person, does go for the kill every round. Ive realized myguard is not as good as I am made believe by my partners, and I have years of practice before it will be brown belt level.